It's not even that I've been insanely busy, or tied up, in prison, held hostage or anything like that. I've just been... meh.
"Meh" means ho hum. Uninspired. Bored.
That's me. All of the above.
The end of last school semester came and went and although I loved the class I took, enjoyed the books, I was disappointed in my results. I am, however, relieved to be off (from school at least) for the Christmas break and trying to psych myself for the schedule I've laid out for myself for my last semester.
I'm not a very Christmas-ey type person. I love to see my children enjoying all the festivities and gifts, but I can take it or leave it. I feel guilty if I haven't bought enough for them to meet the "quota". My family is so small that we only celebrate with my mom and my in-laws.
Christmas also marks the anniversary of my dad's death which is always a little sad.
Then there's work - where the general feeling is that "work" is more important than anything else. I'm so glad that I don't subscribe to that notion.
I sometimes find it hard to come here and read what everyone has been doing in their perspectives homes in the sunny south. So far in the past 2 weeks we've had: 3 major snowstorms, rain, freezing rain, above average temperatures (above zero), below average temperatures (below -15), hurricane force winds (ok, I may be exaggerating here a little but they're big ass winds none the less) and hail. It's gray and shitty, dirty and muddy, cold and windy. So, I sometimes find it pretty depressing to be stuck here while some people are enjoying the places I want so badly to be. Nothing personal folks - I just really despise winter.
Anyway. On to cheerier things.
We DID have a nice Christmas and we're having friends over for a quiet New Year's Eve.
So, even though I've been "Meh", I wish you all a great 2009 and hope you had a wonderful Christmas!
Bring on the New Year!!!!
